restless

So many emotions sort of wrapping around each other like a pantone pallet madly separating and connecting to form other colors/emotions within the same. Been moving faster than my mind was prepared to and wondering about the nature of my being and whether or not it's "rock star style" to not sit with your thoughts at least for a little while every day. Because that's why we do what we do, right? In order to communicate something. I've been observing other artists quite a bit in recent times, and struggled with vibrations and been floored by their illuminations the same.

I love the stage because it represents something completely unique. The events that take place in that space, with those minds, with that sound banging against those walls, being received by those ears is something that will never take place in the same way ever again! Live is so spectacular because of the relationship of an active translation. Music to ear...visual to eye...

I wonder why other people love the stage...what moves them...

In dance, there is a term called authentic movement. Why authentic as opposed to just movement?

the definition of authentic
1. Conforming to fact and therefore worthy of trust, reliance, or belief: an authentic account by an eyewitness.
2. Having a claimed and verifiable origin or authorship; not counterfeit or copied: an authentic medieval sword.
3. Law. Executed with due process: an authentic deed.
4. Music.
1. Of, relating to, or being a medieval mode having a range from its final tone to the octave above it.
2. Of, relating to, or being a cadence with the dominant chord immediately preceding the tonic chord.
5. Obsolete. Authoritative.

[Middle English autentik, from Old French autentique, from Late Latin authenticus, from Greek authentikos, from authentēs, author.]
authentically au·then'ti·cal·ly adv.

SYNONYMS authentic, bona fide, genuine, real, true, undoubted, unquestionable. These adjectives mean not counterfeit or copied: an authentic painting by Corot; a bona fide transfer of property; genuine crabmeat; a real diamond; true courage; undoubted evidence; an unquestionable antique.
ANTONYM counterfeit
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Am just sussing out some thoughts. Don't know really why I'm writing this...but, maybe if you have some thoughts or get the yarn I'm knitting with, perhaps you can just help this conversation along.

I've never been in a position where I have been so close to what I've always wanted and am currently feeling many things that I had never anticipated. Feeling the flip-side if you will. I am tremendously grateful for the intensity of the emotions that I'm feeling and hope to channel them into songs. Think of the "true story of what was" by Ani DiFranco

"BECAUSE REAL IS REAL
REGARDLESS OF WHAT YOU SAY
REAL IS REAL RELENTLESS
WHILE WORDS DISTRACT AND DISMAY"

blessed be
progress
life
and the swing of things